You were

like a primrose through the window

of a lightly furnished room,

in a gently tarnished home,

upon a brightened bricked road

And you were

rows of street lamps in the midnight

chasing darkness up and down the block

’til the morning stumbles in

as you ask it, “where ya been?”

And why

must I now speak of you in past tense?

like I’m thumbing through an atlas

of a world I used to know,

marking spots you didn’t go

And why

must I only find you when the time slows?

or maybe when the sun goes,

like I found you in the shade,

in a courtyard yesterday

‘Cause I,

I was crying in the courtyard

I was crying in the courtyard

and you’re never gonna know

no, you’re never gonna know

That I,

I was crying in the courtyard

it was only in the courtyard

and you’re never gonna know

no, you’re never gonna know

I never got to say goodbye to

you never got to say goodbye too

I never got to say goodbye to

you never got to say goodbye too

Hey, do you think you could forgive me?

do you think I could forgive you?

do you think I’ll be okay

when I think of you today?

‘Cause I,

I was crying in the courtyard

I was crying in the courtyard

and you’re never gonna know

no, you’re never gonna know

That I,

I was crying in the courtyard

it was only in the courtyard

and you’re never gonna know

no, you’re never gonna know

All I can see

through the window are trees

I can be something

you can be something

But it's like I've never tried

outside of maybe one or two times

Rise from my chair

and saunter down the stairs

I can be something

you can be something

Then I think why even try

when I don't even believe in myself

I'm tired of always looking for something

that I can’t find

behind the trees I'll hide

so tired of always looking for something

to change my mind

and make me blind to the roads I'll never drive

I’m gonna take my heartache down two floors,

I’m gonna bury that feeling beneath my core

I’ll watch it turn into something I can’t ignore,

what’s new?

(I’m gonna take my heartache on down

it’s a feeling I’ve found

I’m gonna bury it underground)

Saturday night, yet I can’t fight this feelin’

another drink in my hand, but I can’t stand this feelin’

resigned to my bed, though I can’t shed this feelin’

the morning will break, but I can’t shake this feelin’

Why do I carry this heartache?

another year over

another year older now

Why, do I carry this heartbreak

another year older

another year over

and I just can’t find my way

In the night,

try to shield the weight of every memory

I can’t seem to shoulder

I’m just not the soldier I could be

I’m gonna take my heartache down two floors,

I’m gonna bury that feeling beneath my core

I’ll watch it turn into something I can’t ignore,

what’s new?

What should I do with my sorrow

If I can’t let it be free?

‘cause it’s stirring around in my body,

cut open my gut, see the rings of a tree

And how could someone live so easy,

when the world gets so hard?

'cause even the luckiest people,

if they survive, they eulogize someday

And when it’s my turn to see darkness,

what will I be there to see?

‘cause the street lamps aren’t doin' much chasing

and the morning, well it ain’t here for me

And how could someone live so easy,

when the world gets so hard?

‘cause even the luckiest people,

if they survive, they eulogize someday

You can call it a rainbow

but all I see is rain

you can call it a nightmare

but it once was just a dream

An accident we could call it

an accident they said

an accident an accident

an accident an accident...

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It was a knock out call

over in a second

it was blasted to the end of the wire

we'll have to find a new hero

dancin' in the shadows

hungry for the thrill of the wall

Afraid to step outside,

before the morning comes

afraid to live my life,

like I'm a loaded gun

I'm trying to find my way back

I'm strolling through the past,

the future's gonna save me,

the present's just a fad

Can I reach my prime from my living room?

am I wasting time when I'm in a groove?

still got my eyes on stardom

and still afraid of death,

how long can I hold my last breath?

It was a knock out call

over in a second

it was blasted to the end of the wire

we'll have to find a new hero

dancin' in the shadows

hungry for the thrill of the wall

Do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my lightning rider?

etching highways in the sky

Do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my highway driver?

steering me safely through the night

When she left,

she left all her thoughts behind

she was right,

on the wrong side of her mind

hiding away

in the lost blind spots of time

when we all die, we're all survived

Do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my blindside fighter?

destroying bad guys on the right

Do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my wayward finder?

clearing dead leaves from the pile

Behind the clouds

tryin' to ground myself

but all I ever felt was powerless until you showed

Your energy

took hold of me

'til we were we

now I know you like the back of my hand

like the back of our hands

Do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my

do you wanna be my lightning rider?

Some days are fine,

some days are fine,

some days I find it’s important to remember you

Some days are fine,

some days are fine,

some days I find that it’s kind of hard,

‘Cause every time I think about you,

you die

and I wish I could save you inside of my mind,

I try, yeah, I try

It couldn’t have been easy

I mean it must’ve been hard for a primrose

to grow in the shadow of us

And I wish we coulda saved you

and I wish you coulda saved yourself

from all the heartache you held on to

Some days are fine,

some days are fine,

some days I find it’s important to remember you

Some days are fine,

some days are fine,

some days I find that it’s kind of hard

‘Cause every time I think about you

and I wish I could save you inside of my mind,

I try, yeah I try

It’s never gon’ be easy

It’ll never be the same as before

we grew in the shadow of you,

And I wish we coulda saved you,

and I wish you coulda saved us too

from all the heartache we hold for you

It’s important to remember you,

it's important that I remember you,

it's important to remember you

it's important that I remember you,

I need to remember you

I need to remember you

I need to remember you

I need to remember you

When are you gonna be out here?

when are you gonna be out here?

when are you gonna be out here?

when are you gonna be out here Ollie?

Trying to write some songs about your life

has been the toughest part of mine

but it’s not like I still breakdown

if someone brings you up sometime

It’s been tough ‘cause I’m trying to find you

trying to find you deep beneath this haze

where I always bury my heartache

like some cursed prize inside a maze

Began to write some words about your gift

for always keeping moments light

then got sidetracked remembering

how you cut me down in our last fight

We were as close as any

but then again how close could any get?

my love for you is plenty

so much that I never got to spend

Like a gentle drum that stupid sun

beat down upon my cell phone’s screen

three missed calls triggered walls

so as to shield my childhood dream

That we all live forever

and every day we have is free

from the pain and silent sadness

in this critically acclaimed tragedy

You championed my artwork

more than anyone I ever knew

you made me laugh, you made me mad

we’ll always have Wayne’s World 2

I’ll miss my time beside you

and the bond we built between your days

I’ll carry on your kindness

celebrate each trail you tried to blaze